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>>12553360
Why would I do that? >>12553363
you treat others how you see yourself... >>12553364
Yeah if I did that I definitely wouldn't be very nice. >>12553368
same, but deep down i think we both know we deserve to treat ourselves better, and others as well >>12553375
I'm trying dawg. Getting over hating yourself is hard. Making progress though, thank Christ.

>Deathnote
Güd taste >>12553377
holy trip dubs of wholesome <3 >>12553395
Yeah sorry, I usually ain't like this. Need to go back to being a shithead before I feel human again.

Uh... you're gay >>12553360
this is NOT being nice stop being mean >>12553401
i would eat her tbdesu >>12553404
i would eat the ink she pukes out, apparently its tasty >>12553377 (dubs)
i like your pics too, started watching eric andre show this year and finished disco elysium last year, both are kino

i think we have to accept that we fucked up, we made mistakes, but we can forgive ourselves. we can realize that there are others that have done the same, and many have done worse, and may not even feel this self hatred, this shame, the fact that we feel this about ourselves means we should forgive ourselves, i think. >>12553408
I'm always far more critical of myself than I am of others, much less willing to grant leniency or mercy over my own mistakes.

Perhaps this is because chiefly I am the one who bears the consequences of my own mistakes. They are so much more tangible than the foibles of others. And much more lasting.

And yeah man I luv me Disco Elysium. And Eric Andre is some good stuff too. >>12553416
what has helped me has been realizing that any mistake i make is nothing compared to what others have done. you're still alive and free, you have many potential paths and futures to take, that counts for something. >>12553440
>alive and free,
Sometimes I wonder about that. And sometimes I think I resent it. I have never been fond of living in this world, and I am almost surely destined to die a younger death. I wish to see heaven.

What do you see in your life, anon? nobody is free >>12553442
i have felt the same, many days i asked for death, but i have no comfort from the belief in an afterlife. i have a disease too and recently have had issues with my head, so i wonder how much time i even have left.

if things pan out, i'd like to create a game or two, a visual novel and a parkour/speedrun game, and maybe some music, that's kind of what i want out of life, to just make things. >>12553453
>no comfort from the belief in an afterlife
I figure when I die, I get to go home. And I just want to go home.

>have a disease too
Sorry to hear that, anon. You mind if I ask what it is?

>that's kind of what i want out of life, to just make things.
I respect that a lot. And I envy that desire. The perpetuity of creation, I think, is our purpose here. Unfortunately all I know is violence, and I do believe I will die for it some day. >>12553360
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>>12553460
>I figure when I die, I get to go home. And I just want to go home.
regardless of religion, i think that is true, but also i think it's a double sided thing again like a coin, our life and this world is also our home i think.

>Sorry to hear that, anon. You mind if I ask what it is?
it's a rare autoimmune disease, they labelled it as bechets-like.

>I respect that a lot. And I envy that desire. The perpetuity of creation, I think, is our purpose here. Unfortunately all I know is violence, and I do believe I will die for it some day.
i mean i get that, i have intense anger issues, i got a lot of people i want to destroy. i constantly fight that need to just even scores, and i constantly fear that if i get pushed into certain scenarios i probably will answer with violence and lose my freedom and/or life.

shit's not good man, this is something we have to fight, i'm not religious but i do believe in satanic things, and the violent impulse is satanic, even ignoring the harm it causes to others, it causes harm to us, we lose our freedom and/or our lives.

when i was young, before i got diseased, i wanted to bring my family out of poverty and join doctors without borders afterwards, that was my goal, i ended up hating humanity. these are the two sides within us, don't think you're beyond taking the good path, we both can.
>>12553476
>pic
Cheeki breeki

>this world is also our home i think.
I think this world is our home temporarily, and it is shared by others. Out of courtesy we should try to make this place better for those around us.

>bechets-like
I see. Hopefully it doesn't affect you too much, and you can live a long and happy life. My family has a history of Alzheimers. If I live to see 50, I plan to die soon after.

>something we have to fight
I went the opposite way. Infantry. Currently armed security. Soon I'll be transitioning into police, if all goes well. I protect others, I suppose. But without violence I have nothing. Am nothing. I can't create on my own. And that's harrowing.

>ended up hating humanity.
The funny thing is that even through that you can still help others. I do hate people, generally. But I still do my best to treat others with what compassion I can, and do no harm to those who don't deserve it.
>>12553481
>Cheeki breeki
is good game, never finished it, it's too scary XD

>Out of courtesy we should try to make this place better for those around us.
that's the kind of thinking that i want to embody. i have an uncle that holds a job and still does tons of work at his church doing stuff to keep the kitchen clean and working, and leading the preparation of meals to hand out to people who need it. i visited my family up there and went through the whole process with him, it definitely felt like the best thing i ever did even though i didn't really help anyone personally by myself.

>Hopefully it doesn't affect you too much
>If I live to see 50, I plan to die soon after.
it's really awful for me unfortunately, but what can i do. you shouldn't plan to die, i think we should keep going as long as we can. i have two perspectives on this, on one sense i feel the world wants us to die so we should keep going to spite it, on the other hand it feels unholy to prematurely end our lives, like we're not finishing the destiny given to us. how old are you? im 28

>Infantry. Currently armed security. Soon I'll be transitioning into police
>without violence I have nothing
>I can't create on my own
so you're ex military? that shit has a way of breaking people down and turning them into weapons, or at least from what i've learned. i had a gaming friend that was a cop, and one that was military, both were cool and are still alive, you're not nothing, you can find your tribe if you don't already have one. you can create too, everyone can, it's something we're born with.

>The funny thing is that even through that you can still help others.
i actually wanted to become a cop when i was like 17-20ish, but my father reality checked me to the fact that they wouldn't take me because of my disease. my motivations were kind of fucked up though, i just figured i was fine with abusing people and dying, and that's kind of my view of cops i guess lole. course that's not most cops. Nope, not today
>>12553507
Y'all cowards don't even smoke crack. What's up wit dat?

>tons of work at his church
I try to volunteer at my church when I can. Usually I just clean the place up a bit, but I hope it still helps. Cool as Hell that your uncle does that, we need good people like that.

>shouldn't plan to die
Reaper comes for us all, anon. And I ain't going out from Alzheimers, it's a truly Hellish thing. I happen to have seen it first hand. Besides, a detachment from life means I am unafraid to die in service of doing something good.

>how old are you?
25. Might as well be 40 though, between the divorce and my knees I'm as crotchedy and broken as most people twice my age.

>breaking people down and turning them into weapons
Wasn't anything to break down when I joined up. It gave me an identity, but unfortunately it's all I've ever been drawn too. All my friends too. I do indeed have a tribe, but we all just want a war to die in.

>abusing people and dying
Grim. I'm gonna try my best to be a good officer. I know people who have had great experiences with the police and people who have had horrible ones. I am hoping to be the former >>12553559
>>12553507
Wow, you really don't do that 1000 miles you christians suggest they do in another's foot steps do you? Every single part of your faith is fake. >>12553360
no >>12553360
you copied my thread. I now get to copy one of your threads. Give me a thread you think I would like -- to copy >>12553588
Every single part of your dubs is checked. >>12554166
two same numbers! >>12553360
if i am nice to i get sex? >>12554223
sex isnt real >>12554223
you get the illusory experience of sex followed by death >>12554225
>>12554227
my wiener says it is real and illusion or not i shall have it one day. >>12554228
then you'll just have to define what the word is is >>12554231
thats hard, it would be easier to demonstrate. >>12554228
your wiener is wrong >>12554235
mean people might lie to me but my wiener would never. it is all i have in this world. >>12554233
nah just find the right words they'll get it