im so silly haha im not being melodramatic i swear
By false idol | Updated 10/03/25(Fri)04:30:29
disassociating all night what a hellish realm
obsessed and it was all a strange trance
you didnt even see me im just so nervous
selfish and naive as i waste your time
god complex i still hate my mind
now i see im one mistep from breaking
from praying to desperately selling my soul
all i do is myself and love only the high
cheap is talk, a lilin, and tending to freeze
good is eternal but bad is the only thing i feel
screaming inside since im so reckless
my love is dark and I'm so evil
i'd sell myself away just for freedom
that is to say cage me and breed me forever
i cant seem to hold onto my mind anymore
a cute little demon
are you venting about something >>12554437
yes
can u guess what it is desu?? >>12554439
did you mess something up? >>12554440
ur completely right
pats head
i messed it up u see
i am the one who tricked themselve into thinking love was so simple
how silly
its no problem really
they were meant to go
the biggest issue is the demon possession >>12554448
how did you "trick yourself" into "thinking love was so simple"? is "demon possession" a way of saying you did something hurtful? when you say "they were meant to go", are you saying that they rejected you because you were "possessed"?
in other words, did you fall in love with someone, hurt them somehow, and that's why you call yourself evil? >>12554452
im sorry for making u guess so much
its not that i hurt them
i wasnt as attentive and loving as they were
i was selfish and naive since i let a persona take over and selfishly use them for a fun time and less as a partnership
they got depressed and left one day
I can't help but feel like i could've done better
but it wasn't my fault really
they were my first love
and the demon possession is actually real to me
subtle, not extremely real, but its real, its evil in it's very nature, and i cant help but feel like a certain demonic connection has enhanced and steered the path
I'll just say its sexual in nature >>12554469
real as in there's a real demon or there's something really happening to you? >>12554473
what's the difference?
i am like 65% sure im 45/100 beans binded to a demon and their agenda >>12554490
redirect the demonic energy and use it to your benefit next time >>12554496
i think i get it
i might need a examble
like if i was horny
i should make a poem instead right? >>12554499
redirect the demonic thoughts into a fitting vessel, the form it takes isn't important this shit is bananas >>12554501
ill do my best >>12554504
no what haha dont be silly
false idol is a reporter from /s4s/